Day 31

It's Halloween! Halloween always kinda means countdown to my birthday. It's shaping up to be a good one :)

I'm kinda not in the mood to be narcissistic at the moment.. so I'm done with today's blogging.

day 30

*yawn*

Too busy to care today. The picture isn't even sharp.

I'm so freaking tired!

Days 28 and 29

That's right.. I'm putting 2 together. Suck it.



Sunday, I woke up at Jon's. The morning was great and relaxing. I thoroughly enjoy spending time with him. I wish he lived closer, though. I had to bolt out of there 'cause I was late meeting Anthony. We spent the day/night hanging out. This picture is my first hot chocolate of the season. Remind me to a) get skim next time. and 2) not drink it so fast!



Today, I'm skipping school. Why? I dunno.. I'm retarded. But I really have some things I need to get done. No biggie. I'll just be sure to be caught up come Weds....

Oh yeah... Red Sox won the world series last night. :)

Day 27

Too lazy for a real blog.

Game six of the red sox... 5-0 top of the 3rd. I'm... oops, sorry. 6-0. I'm too scared to get excited.

Spent last night with Jon. I'm comfortable with him.

1 week until my birthday.

day 26

some days, taking a picture is hard work.. other times it's easy. today was very much the former.

Today is my last day of my first week at work. I'm kinda excited about this which scares me.. I just don't trust jobs that seem too good to be true. =/

day 25

oh. my. god. I'm so tired.

Twenty-Four DAYS!

I know I'm barely even into this yet, but I feel like 24 days in is insanely good!

I took this picture 'cause I'm dressed and ready for work, but have no make-up on and my hair looks like shit (thanks to a late night shower).

I'm feeling very lonely. I haven't talked to anyone since Sunday or seen anyone since then. Sure, there are people at school and work, but it's not like I'm coming home to anyone (I've been at Juli and Shannon's all week). This schedule doesn't really allow for much interaction.... and I'm lonely.

Spending the weekends with Jon has really gotten me used to sharing a bed. I haevn't shared a bed in almost 2 weeks.. and I'm realizing that, sooner rather than later, I want to permanantly share a bed with someone again. =/

Day 23

I've been doing this for 23 days???

So, the roulette group asked to put a photo to a song (or make a photo for a song). I chose "Overkill" by Colin Hay. Why? Well... I worry... a lot. This came to mind today because after 2 weeks of freaking out about my biology class, my midterm grade is a B. :) How awesome is that?? Now, if I focus, I can maintain that.. or magically turn it into an A.

Also, I have a B+ in my photography class... which was the other one I was worried about. :)

Day 22

I start my new job today. It's been ten and a half month since I worked. I'm a little nervous, but I think I'll be ok. It doesn't may much, but I don't work much, either (25 hours a week)... I don't need too much.. but I'm glad that I can be contributing to society again..

Day 21

Such a gorgeous day out!

This weekend was spent taking pictures. I've been in a fairly good mood. Why? I know not.. but I am.

There isn't much to say today. I invited Jon to my birthday get together, but didn't tell him it was my birthday. It's not really a test... I invited luke and sun and didn't mention it was my b-day....

It's been twenty days!

I decided to do my depth of field homework at Juli and Shannon's (they're on their cruise). I knew that I would be less inclined to dick around.. also I wouldnt have 3 cats jumping up and fucking with my shit. On my way over, I had the idea to make my 365 for today of me setting up my shot.... so that's what it is. I have to tell you.. I'm kinda a fan of this shot.

So, I'm in a really good mood. I think it might be because I'm kinda on top of all of my school work. I have about 18 pictures to take for my photography class on Tuesday, but they're all my own choice, so that should be easy. Also, I have to do my bio presentation, but I plan on working on that as soon as I finish this. Also, I start my new job on Monday.

I'm still barely bleeding. I don't know if this will just be an extremely light period.. or if it will just be extremely long. I'm hoping for the former.

Still haven't heard from Jon. I've decided to hold off until my birthday.. then maybe talk to him.... I'll see how the next two weeks go.

Day 19

The pictures I tried for all fucked up 'cause I didn't see how zoomed I was! How silly am I?

After a week of feeling off AND being busy, my weekend begins today. I have a lot to do (cleaning, laundry, homework, etc), so I have vowed not to spend all day on flickr (I hope). So, even though this was not my intended picture, I am posting it 'cause... well... 'cause if I don't, I spend my day off taking pictures or looking for ideas!

It's rainy and gloomy out. Juli and Shannon are leaving on vacation and my mom is gone for the weekend. I don't know if I'll see Jon or not, but I'm ok with either way. Why? Well..... tomorrow night... tomorrow night I will be watching the Red Sox game. If they lose, it's the last game until next year. If they win... I get to spend Sunday watching the game that will decide it all. I hate how into baseball I have become, but it was inevitavle. I like it. Brian just suffocated me and.. well.. frankly made it boring. But I have reclaimed my non hatred and it has become a, dare I say it... adoration for the game.

Oh well. Off to clean.

Day 18... yay! the week is over!!! :)

This picture was on flickr for less than 5 minutes before it had 80 views. 80 views!! And I didn't even have to show my boobs!

I posted this picture because Anthony made fun of me for taking cleavage pictures ('cause I love my boobs) and when I said that they're there so often 'cause they're on my body.. he mentioned that my belly button is on my body and he's never seen that. So... I took this picture. My fingers make a heart :) It covers some of the flab :D

Day 17

I'm finially starting to feel like myself again. This is probably because I'll wake up tomorrow bleeding.. but I'm ok with that (sure, I'd like it to wait until Sunday or Monday.. but it's no biggie).

So that's really all. I am so ready for the weekend!

Day 16

I'm PMSing pretty hard. Part of me wants the actual period to hold off until Sunday or Monday... the other part of me wants it to hurry up and get here so i can start to feel normal again.

This shower has been the highlight of my day. I'm kinda over school. Only 3.5 more years to go.

Kill me now.

the ides of October... (day 15)

From the moment I met him, I knew he was something special. From the moment I met him, I suspected he did not feel the same way.

I cannot help but hide behind myself.. within myself.

I don't emote very well.. and sometimes it makes my insides want to explode.......

Day 14

I didn't feel like myself today. I think I may be P.M.S.-ing.

I'm a little too eh to blog much more. I'll try to do better tomorrow.

Day 13

I'm posting today 'cause I was at Jon's all yesterday and could not upload my pictures from there! So, I'll take a picture of me later in the day for my Sunday

So yeah, I went to Jon's on Friday night and somehow ended up staying there until about 8am this (Sunday) morning.

The picture above does not accurately depict my day. I help shop for and install blinds, I tried to help install a garbage disposal (but that shit was WAY too heavy for me), I went to Home Depot like 4 times (not even exaggerating), and then drank too much rum. I always feel liks such an asshole when I drink around people. :(

I think I need to stop doing that.

Day 12

I was torn between posting this picture and this pictures.. but after an hour or so on flickr, the feet had more views, so I assumed that was the better picture.

I need a change...

Day 11

I just came off of a stressful week and I did not feel like doing this.. but The Office makes me happy, so I figured I'd pay homage to it.

I have nothing else to say.. I'm beat!

Day Ten

I had this idea for a while. I don't like how it came out, but whatever. I have other things to be doing today than retaking my 365 picture.

I have a bio test tomorrow and I'm really not prepared. I decided that all I can really do is re-read the chapters. I also have an essay due, but I'll get that done. Even if it's not my best work, I can at least hammer *something* out.

Well, I shouldn't keep typing. I have a lot to do. I'm definitely taking it easy this weekend. Sure, I'll have work to do.. but I really just want to relax and not be busy for once....

Day 9

Ugh.. I have a biology test to study for and I am far less than ready. I am dedicating today to studying... and tomorrow before and after class. This is the major class I'm worried about. I'm also kinda freaked out about my photography class. Shhh... don't tell anyone....

Day 8

I knew I wanted to do a breast cancer picture.. so when I checked Roulette and saw today's theme was boobiethon.. I figured today was as good a time as any! Not to mention.. I rarely pass up the opportunity to shoe off my boobies! :)

So.. here we go. October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. My mom has, for the past many years done the 3 day breast cancer walk along with other mini walks. Because of this, I have had many breast cancer survivors enter my life.

Links:
www.boobiethon.com/
cms.komen.org/komen/index.htm
www.avoncompany.com/women/avoncrusade/

Give generously.. save the boobies!

Day 7..

It's Sunday! Not only is it Sunday, but it's the Sunday of a three day weekend!



i've had a pretty good weekend. There is a song by Schuyler Fisk called paperwight. This song always pops into my mind on those days that I wake up at Jon's and the morning is good/fun. I had some mental.... awakenings, maybe?.. which I'll write down in the appropriate journal.

Other than that, I feel like all I did today was drive. Drove home from Jon's.... up to Attleboro.... back home... back to attleboro.. back home.

Day six...

This is going to be a long year!



Went to Salem, MA with juli and shannon. Was at Jon's last night so this is the first time I've been jome in about 20 hours. I'm effin' tired. But I had a really good time and may have taken a couple of really good pictures. Anthony is in Canadia this weekend, so he did not join us. I can't believe i've only been doing this project for six days...

Day 5!

So, I'm just sitting here waiting to go to an appointment I have. I got a job (contingent upon a successful background check.. which I'm not really worried about). I have to be there at 11:30 to get finger printed and what not.

I kinda wish I didn't have to leave the house today. I have a monster zit and it hurts and it's ugly.

That's all. I should finish getting dressed!

Day 4....

They say a picture is worth 1,000 words. I only needed 3.

Edit:
I got some comments about the boobs in this picture. So, I wanted to explain this picture a little bit better. I put a lot of thought into this picture and it was not just a vehicle to show my boobs (which is something I *do* like to do).

That being said... I had been pretty depressed. I was thinking about my situation with guys and how every time I really start to feel for someone, I can't help but feel used. Warrented or not, it feels like I'm good enough to be used sexually.. but not good enough to feel loved.

.... that is just how i felt at that moment.

3/365

I have spent the last 16 hours or so writing out who I am as a person. I have drawn numerous conclusions and have started to feel comfortable in some aspects of myself. I do this all in time to hide that away and go on a job interview.

I hope I get this job.. for many reasons. Mainly, I hate not knowing what is going to happen. This will eliminate (or at the very least diminish) that threat of the unknown.

Day 2

My life has changed so drastically in '07. I started the year unemployed in a happy and committed 3 year relationship. I lived with my boyfriend, my dog, and my cat. Now, 10 months later, I'm working on getting a job, I'm taking 4 classes Monday- Thursday and consumed by school. I live with my mother and my cat and am single. I'm kinda seeing this one guy.. but it just gets more confusing as the days go on.

Today, it finally started to feel like it was finally settling.

Day one...

I was pointed to a flickr community where you take one self portrait a day for 365 Days. Today, I start that project.




So, in looking through the community, I saw a girl who completed her 365 days. In it, she listed all that changed. So, i figured blogging will be a good way to document these changes.. but i don't want to bug my friends with it.