Day 61...

I love love love the holidays! :)

Day 60...

I'm fucking beat! This is not going to be a fun weekend. Not at all. Not even a little bit. I'm dying to see him.. but I have so much freaking work to do that if I don't.. I won't mind. I have to read my story, then write my term paper (nope haven't started). I have to read the rest of the Tempest. Reread the short stories from this week so I can take a test. Read 2 chapters in Bio, do the test and do the presentation on MRSA. *If* there is any time left over, I need to do my laundry and clean. Fuck. I need to do my laundry no matter what.

Mom will be out of town. I think I'll just curl up with some yummy tea and hide away. No real contact and just whither away until the end of the semester.

2 FUCKING WEEKS LEFT!!!!!!!

day 59

Wow... I'm a little out of ideas... I have an idea for a theme week that I'll be mapping out and hopefully executing well. Hopefully.

I am so busy with school and work and what not that taking these pictures is super hard. I like this picture a lot.. but had no commentary to add to it.. which kinda makes me sad...

Day 58

Futurama is back and Megan is a happy happy person :)

I'm so friggin' tired. 3 weeks left of school.

Day 57

It's all just a waiting game now. I'm waiting for the semester to end. I'm waiting for training to end at work so I can pick up more hours. I'm waiting for Christmas to come and go and hoping no one buys me anything. I'm waiting for him to start a conversation I want to have that he'll never start. I'm waiting for myself to cheer up. I'm waiting for my insurance to kick in so I can start taking care of me. I'm waiting for everything to magically fix itself....

day 56....

I hate Sunday pictures. There is one I really want to get, but that involves Jon.. and I feel weird about asking him to do it. Why? 'cause I'm insane.

I saw him last night. I *shouldn't* have... but I did. I couldn't help it. i was horny... and awake.. and my internet exploded.

I wanted to talk to him about something this weekend.. but being that I only saw him for a couple of hours, I did not. I probably never will.

I don't want to feel used.. but I have to admit, it's kinda hard. I never really know where he's coming from and it sucks. I can't ask 'cause I'm afraid of the answer.

Anthony is on his way over. I hope he wants to go somewhere instead of just playing on the computer all day.

Day 55

It's Saturday. Jon has some big project he's working on, so I didn't go there last night. Just as well. I hope I get to see him today.. but eh.. I have stuff to do. i think I'm just craving interaction. I haven't seen anyone since Weds and even then, it was Anthony, so we were just sitting on the computer on opposite sides of the room. Story of my life.

Day 54

mmm I'm kinda relaxed! I have to get up and do dishes.. but never in my life have I felt more relaxed after Thanksgiving.

As soon as I post this, I have to get up and start my day..

Something happened this week which has kinda brought me to my boiling point. I'll probably write about it Sunday or Monday...

Day 53- Happy Thanksgiving..

A very fitting picture for how I've been feeling lately....

It's Thanksgiving and I'm all alone. I though i'd be bothered by it... surprisingly, I'm not.

I'm just waiting for a "Happy Thanksgiving" from Jon.... I'm not holding my breath...

Day 52

Money is stupid... especially when you don't have any..

It's looking like I will not be attending school next semester as my account is on hold and I cannot afford to bring it back to life.

Day 51- FIRST SNOW

It's the first snow of the year. God, I love this :D

I've been doing this for 50 days now...

people are "lol"ing at my picture! I don't know that i was going for a "lol"able picture.. but whatever.

I'm not in a sad mood or anything.. I'm in a great mood... 'cause I had a great weekend.

Of course... now I have a headache...

day 49......

My Sunday pictures are never any good. so, I figured I'd save myself the hassle of worrying about it and just snap a photobooth pic.

I'm riding on the high of an amazing weekend. A weekend full of a lot of little (seeminly) nothings... but boy oh boy.. was it something..

Day 48

Stupid period.

Saw Bright Eyes... pretty good :)


had a good day.. i'll be writing about it in my other journal :)

day 47

it's friday. i'm thankful for this!

Day 46

Not much to say. It's Thursday!! That makes me a happy Megan. I took a bio test today that I either did surprisingly well on.. or surprisingly terrible on. BUT! Tonight.. and tomorrow for work.... then WEEKEND. And what does next week bring me???????

Monday- school for 2 hours.. then work. Tuesday- Just work. Weds- just school for 2 hours. Thurs- OFF!!!!! Fri- just work.

:) :) :)

So happy for so many reasons. 2 weeks that I don't have to worry about a bio presentation!!! Yippee!!!

Day 45

I love hurley

44 days in....

Naked.

I'm naked.

I decided to go naked for my 365 for today. Why? I dunno. I've been having some real, raw, and honest thoughts over the past couple of days. It's scary...

Also.. thinking [again] about going on the pill....

Day 43

I did not hate this picture. I did not hate this picture even before I cropped my arm out.

I was gonna write the same thing I wrote in my pic description... but that seems pointless. Instead, I'll just say.. "NEW PJs for ME!!!!!!"

Secret? I hope jon likes it.... *if* I decide to show him..

Day 42

We went to pick out the Christmas tree today.....

Day 41

Date night with Jon. This really kinda felt like a date. We ordered take out from bertucci's (lasagna was SO good... the lobster ravioli wasn't bad, either.. just wish the lobster was more evenly disbursed throughout all of the raviolis). We got some super yummy wine (pinot nior), and sat back and watched Futurama. It was a good night. It was, actually, a very good night....

Some 365 rejects:

Day 40

Some days a picture has more meaning than it should....

I emailed Jon last weekend thanking him for my birthday and (in my mind) pouring my feelings out... I haven't heard from him since Monday for half a second.

I hate boys.

I had a hair appointment today and was forced to look at myself in the mirror for half an hour. I feel disgusting.

Day 39

I do love me some faceless/bodyless pictures... of course I just don't have anything to write....

an extra picture on day 38

I felt like taking one more picture of myself. This is just me. No levels change, no cropping, no border. From camera to flickr.. this is simply me. I don't know why I felt the need to do this.... I guess just sometimes I can get so curious about the possibilities of a good/decent 365 picture that has some level of creativity.. I simply just forget that I'm not just showing you who I am. Pony tail and all.

Not adding to any group... not tagging. A picture of me.. simply for me and anyone else who wants to see who i am :)

my 38th day

I had a little mental breakdown yesterday.. it kinda spilled into today =/

.......I was gonna say that I don't want to talk about it.. but I just haven't. So, since this is what this is here for... here is my rambling:

I don't know if I can do this school and work thing. No one really knows this, but I'm backed up on my school payment and have no idea if/when I'll be able to pay it up to date.. which means I do't know if I will be able to register for next semester.

My other problem is living at home. It's fine, I guess.. but I really hate it. So, I'm thinking of a few options for myself... but that means I may be looking to move out around or soon after June. I really want to talk to someone about these things. I don't want to shoot myself in the foot.. but I don't want to be miderable, either. =/

day 37

Two things I want to do at any given moment: play scrabble... and be in love.

I'm itching for both at the moment....

dayith 36

Sometimes, I don't know what is harder- taking a picture every day... or keeping up with the blog...

Day 35

Anthony and i are retarded.

Day 34- Birthday!

Possibly the best birthday I've ever had. Friday night I went to Jon's. I was tired but just glad to not be working. He offered me a drink and my lack of self control took place. At 12:15, he realized what time it was and wished me a happy birthday :)

The next morning, I spent the morning throwing up (don't think he knows that)... when he woke up, he wished me a happy birthday again....... and handed me a present. Wow.. i wasn't expecting that AT ALL.

Then, he went with me for Sushi and I dropped him off at his mom's house. I met up with Anthony, Juli, Shannon, Sun, and Luke for dinner, then they tricked me into coming into a dark house where they had spent the afternoon decorating. We then ate and wii'd and played board games. It was fun :)

The night ended and I went back up to see Jon. i was more tired than I should have been, but I really do enjoy sleeping there.

Day 33

It's FRIDAY! I leave for work in less than an hour. In 7 hours, I'll be on my way to Jon's. Why does this excite me so? 'Cause tomorrow is my birthday and that means I get to wake up to him :) Even if he doesn't remember... I get to wake up to him.. and that makes me happy.

Happy Friday!

Day 32

Holy crap! it's November! I schooled all day, took about an hour break, then went to work all night. I'm tired and ready to relax! so me take off my clothes and that's what you see :)