Day 152

One day, I will master a jumping picture! That, my friends, is a goal.

Mom is home today. We looked at some appliances and patio furniture and things for the new house.

I'm tired. I wonder how terrible it would be to sneak in a nap at 6pm on a Friday night...

Day 151

Most tired girl ever.
Drank an energy drink and work and thought I was going to die.
Had some rather confusing conversations.
Also so anger educing ones.

Also... was too tired to blog.... so now I have one more to toss up by day's end :)

Day 150

150 Days in. It seems like a milestone.. but it's really not. of course... these days every day is a milestone for me. I'm so freaking tired.

Ok.. it's time to nap. I'm a tired Megan... maybe more later..

Day 149

Sometimes, I think it would just be easier if I was a lesbian. At least then I would have a better grasp as to what was going on in the other person's head. Sometimes, dealing with boys is just ridiculous.

Day 148

So, now it's really important that you click my ads since I have bought the lenses I don't have the money to buy :D

My battery is running low and I'm gonna try to nap for like 20 minutes before shift #2.

Day 147

I don't have a lot to say tonight. I'm just feeling a little disenchanted about everything.

ugh. I don't even want to talk about this shit.

Day 146

Some saturdays are goofy yet inspired. Some Saturdays are sweet, romantic, and fun. But some Saturdays, I go on a date with the best gay boyfriend ever and end up having one of the greatest nights ever... even if the emo is unavoidable. I <3 my Anthony. He's a good kid. I wish we could find someone to love and poke him.

I'm hungry. What's for lunch?

Day 145

I love the snow.

I love my new shoes.

I love winter.

I love Fridays.

I love weekends :)

Day 144

My first ever "there is no hot water damn it's cold shower." Sure, i have taken cold showers before.. when it was hot as balls out. Not when it was 30 degrees out. The shower did not last long.

This weekend I was singing to him.. the song lyric "I don't want to work I just want to bang on the drum all day" got in my head. Somehow it got changed to insert his name in there. I did it seamlessly. He seemed impressed. Now that song is back in my head. I bet this would make sense if I would just say his name... but he lost that right and has not quite earned it back yet. Anthony still isn't allowed to say his name. No skin off my ass.. but it sure does piss him off. Apparently, he distinguishes people by name. *shrug*

My belly hurts and I really have no idea what time it is.

This week has been weird... but... and I don't want to jinx it... I think it may have actually been good. :) We shall see.

Day 143

143 is one of my favorite numbers. 10 years ago when beeper codes were all the rage, 143 was "I love you" So now that combination of numbers makes me smile.

This picture has a story behind it. click it to read it if you haven't already.

Oh, i can't wait for this week to end. Tomorrow, my dear friends... tomorrow is my Friday... and Friday I'm in love..

I'm a loser.. I know.. but I need to nap for an hour before work.

Day 142

Oh, I'm SO not feeling up to this today. I'm exhausted and it's busy at work :( I'm gonna try to nap before... and I'm hoping to get rid of some of my hours this week 'cause i'm SO not feeling it. I really should have called out sick...

Day 141

You'll have to click to see the whole picture. I wish you didn't have to. But click my ads, too. Seriously... how much time out of your life will it take to click click click??

So I went to target for my day off and spent $40 but bought over $100 worth of stuff. It's great! I bought this hot chocolate set that had these great mugs in it that say "you me you me".. I love it so!

Anyway, aside from the fantasticness that has been the past two weekends, I have nothing else interesting to talk about... and I get scared talking about that fantasticness, so I won't. :)

Day 140

When I managed to get myself home today, I pretty much just hang out with mom watching movies and editing photos. We ate lunch, too.

I really have nothing left to say...

Day 139

It was a good fun Saturday. There was picture taking, laying down and talking, pillow buying, chinese eating, poker playing, and Simpsons watching.

I often worry I have too much fun on days like that day..... there is no way this is going to end well for me.

Day 138

Mom had the flu. Spent all day at the doctors with her. Here's hoping I don't get it. I don't have time to get sick.

Now, I'm catching up on some TV.

Day 137

So it's that glorious wondrous sparkly holiday where you have to tell the people you love that you love them (since it's forbidden the rest of the year) and if you're single you're required to, I think, hate yourself more than usual. Me? I'm the queen of VD. I start hating it the moment I see something at the store. I think this year I first saw something on December 26.

But this year, I've been good. I've been laying off the hate and letting it quietly eat me up. I have not publicly declared my utter loathing of this holiday. It has not been in an attempt to gain recognition from those who should be recognizing.. but rather so if anyone feels the need to express their love/gratitude/appreciation/adoration for me they can feel free to do so without me biting their head off. I have been very careful not to let it slip to certain people that I think the holiday is crap. It has not helped.

I'm pretty freaking hungry and I have a long day ahead of me =/ I should probably stop at the store and get food before that day starts.

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Day 136

You'll have to click the picture to actually see me, me thinks.

I'm really tired. I need to go back to bed... at least for a little while.

I have no idea where my ice scraper is. This is not something that ends up being fun when your idea of winter dress is a hoodie.

I may come back with more "Megan insight" later... I may not. I guess just click my ads as a way of telling me you want more... or you've had enough. Either way just click! I'm about $20 in and at $100 they will cut me a check and I can pay for books.

Oh yeah... I was a grown up yesterday... that's what I wanted to talk about....

Day 135...

VD is coming up. I'm still elated over the weekend. I can't imagine it'll get much better than that....

Day 134

I hung out with Anthony last night. I love hanging out with him and just talking about things I can't really talk to other people about. I also saw his new apartment. The lights went out and it was pitch black 'cause it went out on the entire street. See, one of those silly little secrets i have is how afraid of the dark I can be. See, you wouldn't really know it to be my friend 'cause I never really freak out much.. but sometimes... and Anthony has been privy to this I think twice now... I get wicked scared (did I tell you I'm gonna start using "wicked" now?) and freak out. Yeah. That.

I really have to take a shower. I feel super gross right now.

Day 133...

It's Sunday! The start of a new work week for me..

This picture has been cut off a bit... click it to see the whole image. click click click.

At this point, all I'm gonna say about this weekend is that it's very nice when the person you're spending time with says "I had a really good time today. With you."

Day 132

I'm going to completely bypass the weird news I got and focus on the movie, the wine, and the fire, and the hanging out with mom.

I'm tired and wait patiently for answers...

Ok... so it's 5 am and I have slept off my 3 hours of sleep and bottle of wine.

So the good of the weekend. I finally got to see Juli and Shannon. After that, I got to see him where there was a lot of random talking... a lot of it. I dunno... I just had a great time with him. I'm glad I exited early, though... I think that really is the best idea sometimes.

I really wish mom didn't tell me what she told me, though. I mean, I'm glad she told me.. I just wish she didn't have it to tell...

Day 131

I'm having a bitch of a time connecting to the internet. It's so sad.

I have to make this short:
I wrote all over myself for a picture that didn't come out.
It's snowing.
I'm being threatened via email (no no.. it's all in good fun)
and my favorite people in the world (you) are clicking my ads to fund my new lens/school books.

I love you!!!!!!! :D

Day 130

I would have been asleep by 10:30 had he not IMed me. I hate that I always feel like the last person in the world he wants to talk to.

But i don't want to dwell.

I have a long day ahead of me... but at least it's Thursday! Which means weekend for me.

I decided to start keeping better track of my money.. especially since things are going to start changing with the debit cards and how funds are taken out. that'll be a fun week, i'm sure...

*ahem* click ads?? :D

Day 129...

So, here is how my week goes: Sunday, I'm happy and satisfied. Monday I'm still riding on the high of the weekend. Tuesday, I'm still happy. Wednesday, I'm usually pretty indifferent and not thinking about it. Thursday, I miss it and am starting to get anxious. Friday morning I start to get angry and quit. Either Friday night or Saturday, I'm back on it and enjoying every minute of it. Then the week starts over again....

And there is your little insight into me.

I so wish my job paid more/was a little more challenging.

I had someone ask me about my relationship status. Not a fun question to answer in general let alone at 7:45 in the morning to a 25 year old in new york. I wonder if he was cute....

Day 128

I had a dream that he told me he loved me. Know what my reaction was? "Ew, why??" Even in my dreams I hate myself.

I'm so appreciative to everyone who has clicked! We have a ways to go... but I see that clicks have been made and I'm eternally grateful!

I'm very excited about tomorrow! I managed to get it off. However, I can't handle that, so I picked up some a.m. hours. So, I work at 7:45 am but I'm done for the day come 12:45. :D

I'm the most interesting person ever, huh?? Sorry that I'm not. I have a long day ahead of me. I have to leave my house 10 minutes ago and I won't be home until 10:30 tonight. I suppose I should get out of bed....

Day 127...

Still trying to generate more views/clicks. I hate whoring myself out this way.. but I'm getting a tad desperate.

I have something planned for Valentine's Day! I hate the holiday, but I think it'll make for an ok picture.. so woo! I'm working a double that day.. so.. you know... whatever.

VD is weird for me. I hate it.. I really really do.. but that doesn't mean that a girl doesn't want some kind of recognition of it. I spent 3 years in a relationship that was barely one. Last VD, I cried my eyes out.. and if you know me.. you know I don't cry. This year is weird. I don't really have anyone that I can get mad at if I don't get anything for it... but I do have someone that is either gonna say something or won't. And if I were a betting man... err woman... I'd say he won't. 'cause that's the kinda gal I am.

ugh.... just the thought of that stupid piece of crap holiday is getting me down... I should cheer up. I have an hour before I leave for work. I should nap....

Day 126

I had a super duper scary driving experience last night. It was after 1am and I'm driving along and this SUV gets behind me and is right on my ass with their brights on. So I change lanes and they change right behind me. For like 5 minutes they're following me. It was getting close to my exit and I was getting so scared... they eventually got bored or something... but it freaked me out. I was shaking for the next half hour.

Last night was great. Drinking with Anthony then drinking with Jon and his friends. You know what is a glorious glorious thing??? Denial.

day 125

As soon as I know more.. you'll know more...

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Day 124

Again with the clicking to get the full effect. And click my ads so I can buy a new lens and take more pictures :) I know, I know.. I'm terrible. Butttttt... maybe if I see people clicking and know people are reading, I'll be more inclined to take more pics and divulge more thoughts/feelings.

'Cause something big happened this week.

Anyway, I could use a hug. I just wish things were easier, you know? I wish I had the confidence to just be like "DUDE!"... but alas... I don't..