Monday, March 31, 2008

Day 183

183/365- Spy vs Spy..

Today's plan was to wake up, unpack, take a pic, empty the car, go to work. Sleeping until almost 11 has turned that into wake up, take my pic, make my bed, go to work. It's terrible!

I am half way through my 365! Yippee! I'm not thinking "oh my god, I can't believe i've made it so far!" but more like "holy crap! I've taken a picture of myself every day for 6 months... I've blogged for every day for 6 months!"

It's kinda crazy!

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Day 182

182/365- Careful confessions.. can't scare you with my crime.

I don't really know what to say anymore. I keep thinking about the wisdom teeth thing. I keep worrying about unpacking. I keep... i dunno... I just keep thinking about things. It's terrible... really!

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Day 181

181/365- I get by with a little help from my friends...

How in the world am i supposed to get over and evict someone from my life who is just flat out there for me when I need him.

I don't even want to think about today =/

Friday, March 28, 2008

Day 180

180/365- Dance party..

I'm effin' beat!

I have to clean up my unpacking mess so I can sleep.

I'm so tired.

*yawn* this is going to be a busy weekend...

Day 179

179/365- Always use protection!

I can't wait until they are done laying the wood floors. I can't wait until the old apartment is finished. I can't wait until I'm unpacked. I can't wait until my wisdom teeth are out and i feel better. Everything should be settled just in time for vacation on 4/10.

Day 178

178/365- Moving day

Moving day.

Went to the dentist.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Day 177

177/365- Oh, my OW!

I have to call the dentist today. I hope I can get in today or tomorrow. I hope he tells me to man up and that i don't need my wisdom teeth taken out. :(

Monday, March 24, 2008

Day 176

176/365- No title today


I'm just taking things one minute at a time.

My room is packed. Tomorrow I'm gonna work on moving a bunch of boxes. I wish I had some money so I could rent a truck =/

oh well... I'll just spend the $ on gas.

I forgot to put the vacuum away. Crap.

I don't have time for this. I have to shower now!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Day 175

175/365- Happy Easter!

There is something terrible going on in my mouth right now. I think I have to go to a dentist. Maybe get my stupid wisdom teeth out :(

I failed at the whole not seeing him ever again. I imagined I would have. Maybe I can end up being strong enough to just resist the desire to spend time with him.

Fuck my mouth hurts.

I move in 2 days. I may end up updating this after I move. we'll see how it goes.

<3

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Day 174

174/365- Bravely I look further than I see...

So, I have worked my butt off this week to push certain people out of my thoughts. I have failed miserably. I blame God... or my Tivo. Anyway, tonight will be my test of will. Tomorrow and during the week will be easy... but tonight? If confronted with this person, I'll be hard-pressed to resist. My only consolation is that if he's doing *anything* tonight, it's probably poker. But I can do it! I can.... I think...

Also... I think I'm going to look into a website. I'm hoping the person I was talking to about it yesterday remembers.... but it'll showcase some photography. Good times. Even if I have to do it alone... I just really wanna see what I can do with this "talent" I seem to have....

:)
Hope your day is magical :D

Friday, March 21, 2008

Day 173

173/365- Happy Birthday, Dad...

Today is Dad's Birthday. Click on the pic to read what I have to say about him.

I went picture-taking with Juli. I drank too much then sobered up... edited my pictures and now I go to sleep.

That's about all the fun I plan to have this weekend...

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Day 172

172/365- Why hello there..

My deadline for packing is Saturday. That won't be a problem. Doing a bit today.. then I have all day tomorrow and Saturday.

I've had just absolutely nothing to say as of late.

Maybe there will be something tomorrow...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Day 171

171/365- The uninspired FGR..

I have nothing to disclose on this dreary uninspired blah day...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Day 170

170/365- All we are saying...

Today's assignment was peace sign. How could I not join in? I flash the peace sign all the time! I'm a hippy... I really am.

There isn't too much to say today. The only thing I did yesterday was work. The only thing I'm doing today is work. I really hate working nights 'cause I feel like I can't do anything before work.. but when I work in the mornings, I can do things all evening. =/ Woe is me.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Day 169

169/365- Black and Green...

Today is St. Patrick's Day. One year ago today I was making plans to head into Boston to visit Sun and Luke with Brian. The night before, I had written in my journal that my relationship was over and I was just going to do what I had to do to have a place to live. Brian got home from work and we talked. We went up to Boston and had some fun. We didn't let on at all that we had broken up that day. The next day, I went to Juli and Shannon's as not to be home.

In that year, I moved back in with mom, discovered photography, met J and Anthony's friend, and have felt more like myself than ever before.

That relationship was bad. Three years with a guy who just didn't give a crap. His apathy made me feel like shit about myself. He made me feel stupid and ugly. We never fought. The break-up came as a surprise to some, but not to others. We didn't fight but that just meant we had no passion. If you know me, you know that I am passionate about *everything*.

That relationship was good for me. Before that, I was a major commitment phob and now I know that I can overcome that. I know that I can live with someone without hating them, and I know that I will never ever settle. Ever.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Day 168

168/365- Easy like Sunday morning...

I had fun last night. I may have to look into this whole going out on Saturdays thing.

SoCo and lime tastes like REALLY strong cough syrup.

That's the extent of today's excitement. I'm gonna find food and then clean. fun times.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Day 167

167/365- Ladies... hold on to your... ladies...

This outfit was too great not to turn into my 365. You're jealous, I know!

So, I went to the gay club. It was fun... but there were so few people I was attracted to! Though there was this one chick I wanted to like kidnap and make my own.... there were far less hot chicks there than hot guys on a normal day. 'Cause let's face it.. I'm not very discriminating!

I'm a little drunk.

ok... maybe a little more than a little...

Friday, March 14, 2008

Day 166

166/365- Shave and a haircut.. two bits...

I'm just not as comfortable sleeping in a bed that isn't mine. I slept through the night, but actually GETTING to sleep was a challenge.. which was weird 'cause I was falling asleep when all the lights were on and J was still home... but as soon as he left for work, it was like BOOOIIIINNNNGG cannot sleep. But I prevailed. Then, of course, he stupid got home early (5 instead of 6) and woke me up. It was rather obnoxious, oh well.. at least I got him off to the airport.

And now I have 2 weeks to grow up and find the courage to never see him again.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Day 165

165/365- 13 things I wanna do this spring/summer..

It's interesting to consciously do that girl thing where you're mad at someone and not telling them why or even THAT you're mad.

I may need to find me some food. It's already two??

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Day 164

164/365- Is the week over yet?

Today is Mom's closing. I can't wait until today is over.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Day 163

163/365- When the dog bites.. when the bee stings.. when I'm feeling sad...

Not too much to say. I'm barely working this week simply so I can pack. So, I should probably throw on some Invader Zim and get to packing.

Happy Tuesday everyone! Two more shifts left of work! Woo. This weekend is going to be terrible!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Day 162

162/365- She shines in a world full of ugliness

I have this "everything is about to change" feeling just covering every piece of my life right now. I think that J going to Japan this week is perfect for me. I was talking to Anthony and he thinks that when he gets back, I should just not contact him. I think that may be best. I kinda wish I hadn't told him I'd take him to the airport.. but it's not like I'd let him take the train anyway.

Mom sent me an inspirational email. Not about God or anything, but about my photography. She thinks I should just submit my photos all over the place so I can get a job as a photographer.. freelance or otherwise.

I would love to get paid to take pictures.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Day 161

161/365- Presenting my favorite word...

I don't know what to say about this other than I'm over him...

Day 160

160/365- "I am the pantsless monster of drunk town!"

Oh Saturday. A good day. I ran a bunch of errands with J, then we decided we needed to get drunk. In our drunkenness, many of my questions were answered. Things went as expected.. just not as hoped. But I'm super ok with it anyway. So what does this change? Nothing really. I'm just turning off the feelings I was feeling.. which is pretty easily done, ya know?

Other than that, Anthony threw a party... that was wicked fun! Then I went back to J's for sleep... which was kinda pointless... but ended up being really good for that whole feelings thing that needs to go away.

Now, I must pack. Turns out I'm moving this week...

Day 159

156/365- Hey now.. you're an all star...

I have 3 days worth of blogging to do today!!!!! So, I'll simply do it up day by day. Friday was pretty good. I went down to Newport/Jamestown/Middletown with Juli and Shannon. We were going to take pictures but the weather did not let us. We went to the Mews in Wakefield which was DELICIOUS. We tried to stop at Fort Wetherill for some pictures, but Juli and I had to pee too badly. So we headed down to Middletown to take a brewery tour at Newport Storm Brewery. Dude... this looked like some guy just set up shop in some skeevy industrial park. We drove around it and all decided that doing this with no boy around was not in our best interest! So we headed back to their house and drank some wine and talked some.

I then headed to J's for some weekending. I don't remember too much of what we did that night. Watched TV no doubt.. all I know is I actually got some sleep.... which usually doesn't happen on Fridays....

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Day 158

158/365- Truer words...

You may have to click the pic to see the whole thing.

I love this quote. It really resonates with me. Now, my mind works strangely, so this pic is going to make me talk about J.

Last night I was talking to Anthony and started telling a story. "I was talking to J last week," I began when I was interrupted with "you guys talk? I figured you just let him stick it in you then he went and played video games." (that's as exact of a quote as I can remember... which isn't saying much). Yes.. we talk. We talk almost ever moment we're together and awake. I absolutely love it! When I was with Brian (the boy I dated for 3 years and lived with for like 2), we never talked about anything. I think we went full days without words spoken other than "did you eat?" But J and I?? We talk so much! When I had known him for about 4 months, he would start telling me things and I'd say "I know, you told me" and he would get all huffy and say "aww man! I've told you all my stories!" A few weeks ago, it happened again. I playfully snapped and said, "dude, we talk ALL the time!" "But I only see you about once a week," he said slightly confused. "I know this! But you know what we do the entire time together?? We talk! About everything... abut nothing... just talking." And we do. And it's great.

He and I have so much in common. This, we were talking about last week. When I find something funny and try to share it with people, I am often met with a look of "wow, you're nuts" or they find it funny in a way not intended by me. But we find the same things funny or entertaining or fascinating or beautiful!

This entry is making me want to throw up a little... but i guess it had to be said. I just don't share much often. I'm over this. I need food..

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Day 157

157/365- C'mon baby put you're back into it...

I was going to write this entire blog, but man o man, I'm just so freakin' tired!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Day 156

156/365- Don't think about it so much...

This is probably wicked cropped. Click to see the full image.

I voted today! It was the Primaries so I had to vote for the person I felt best represented me. I was torn. I have been backing candidate #1 since 2000 but don't think this person can win in the long run. Candidate #2 is someone I would vote for in the long run and I think has a better chance of winning. I was torn. After an unbelievable amount of soul searching I decided to go with my gut. Then, I decided that I needed to go home and sleep instead. But, this caused me to feel sick, so I stopped and voted.... and I feel great about it! And I'll do it again the day after my birthday.

That's all I have to say today. I sure don't want to go to work today/tomorrow/ever again...

Monday, March 3, 2008

Day 155

155/365- sometimes you just have to get up in there...

Things are getting close. I think I'm going to really buckle down this week and pack like whoa!

I have a short week this week. I'm hoping it just flies by!

k.. nap time!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Day 154

154/365- Sometimes, you're just in a box...

It's Sunday. Nothing exciting happens on Sundays... except that my crazy week starts....

I have to get to a doctor... soon.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Day 153

153/365- Freaky with a Geek..


Megan sleepy.

It's been an interesting 3 days.

Shobi.. if you're reading this: YES! I do work too much! And i'll be catching up on your blog in the morning! But for now... I nap :D

<3